All those nights of different lovers, thinking they wanted me
because I was special, they fucked me because they wanted to stay.
All that empty fucking that meant nothing and I thought it meant
something real was about to happen, as if fucking itself wasn't real at all.
The night Dominic said I was aloof I decided I wanted him,
to prove to him I wasn't, when…
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